Thoughts, Rants and Subliminal Suggestions

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It's sad really, that none of the people I knew from MHS have ever really contacted me except to select me as their friend through facebook. They never gave me the time of day in High School and the same has continued on in college. It still hurts though. So I'd like to say a big Thanks for Shit to them.
In contrast, I could ask for better friends than the ones I have both here at Florida Tech and also during my stint at GHAMAS. You guys have accepted me for who I am, and never took me at face value, you waited to see who I was inside, not outside. So Thanks a Bunch! to my GHAMAS and College friends.

Maybe this is petty and mean of me. But I still can't help but wish that for once I can become someone that those people from High School will go....wow....why didn't I know she was so great before? How come she is so successful and I'm not? One of my fantasies is to go back to my High School reunion and have people not recognize me, just because I've changed so much and become so successful. I continually wonder how everyone else is doing and whether I'm doing better than them or not. This next thought is particularly mean of me, but I almost wish that their flaws that I silently observed at MHS are part of their downfall and that they aren't very successful. It's a horrible thought, and I recognize it as such, but a little part of me still wants that to be the case. A little part of me wants to become something that they desire, but could not, for whatever reason achieve. And maybe that's because I always saw them as popular and successful in high school, and I could never achieve that during my time there.

Anyway, I have to be heading out to work. Random thoughts above are not directed at any one person, just as a disclaimer, but people in general. College and GHAMAS friends obviously excluded.....except if you were GHAMAS and MHS. But then, I never really felt I was your friend in either situation. So you are lumped in as MHS.

I need to improve my mood.

posted by Amy M @ 10:11 AM